Mrts

Think this is only my second time on a train in 4 months. And i realised yet again how much i do not enjoy e experience. This is my set peeve, people shoving to get into e train even before e people inside have e chance to come out. Our trains are good. They're clean, nicely air-conditioned and fast. Its e people that ruin such a pleasant experience. Have more courtesy la singaporeans. We have a super long way to go before we reach our goal of having a civilised society. And its not just e people who take e train ok. People in huge luxurious cars Who drive like e own e road. People who fight over lots in e car park. Who are kiasu and kiasi. See a car coming out, obviously see a car waiting but choose e ignore e latter and instead swiftly get their cars in before e waiting car can react. I see these things over and over again. Its disgusting. I'm disgusted by my own people. Who are relatively rich but are selfish, sore losers and impatient. How do i make a difference all by myself. I don't know. My only effort is to do none of these uncivilised acts and to blog about it. I don't care if it means i don't get on the train, or spend a good 15min driving around looking for a lot, Argh.

Song Elections

The one thing all the superstars dread the most during competition period would have to be brain-storming for that "perfect song" to sing. Everyone has their favourites, songs they WANT to sing but might not SUIT them or might not be FAMILIAR with the audience. There are simply too many factors that affect out decision in choosing what songs to present week in week out...

And I'm still facing the same problems NOW.

Haha, happy problems i'm facing though... because this means I am still performing. BUt i'm having a bit of a crisis, i can't quite decide on the songs to sing. SO... let's have song elections!

Choose the top 5 songs you think you'd like to hear me sing/can try singing/or is suitable for and post it at the yahoo groups. The songs can be songs i've never sung before or even songs i've sung before...

Asap ok! THank you!

Diya is exhausted

I'm so tired i feel as though i'm in some kind of transit between two different worlds. Like a ghost, except i'm very much alive. Really tired. But i don't tink i'll be able to get moment of rest just yet. Going to 刺青's premiere tomorrow and then a youth conference on friday, eastpoint roadshow on sat, followed by a wedding and a concert! Woo! And somehow in all this busy-ness, i seem to have increased in mass! I find it harder to fit into clothes wardrobe provides. Oh dear. Well... Am now working on a trailer and badly need brain juice for it. Wish me luck... In e meanwhile, take care and I'll see you at macdonalds! :) p.s. This nice picture was a ah yee product! Next time round I'll let you guys see a Jiaqi product. Both damn nice!

Revved up and ready to go!

THank you all for your comments, the truths and the encouragements. =) Hopefully you peeps enjoyed the performance at Bukit Batok East, because i felt i did better for that one... and was more prepared. Phew. Although my chord's sheet flew off halfway through my performance... Haha.

Anyway, I just want to say that i really appreciate all your support, coming down to the faraway places i perform and cheering for me and all. I'm very thankful... so i do hope you all make it a point to come to the second gathering which Ivon is currently planning to have. It looks set to be a really memorable gathering... and i'm darn excited about it!

Do visit the yahoo groups http://asia.groups.yahoo.com/group/DIYA_superstar/ and drop her an email if you're coming ok? I'd love to see you there!

Its going to be a blast. And like i said, I'm really thankful for all your support...so Ivon and team is working on making this as affordable as possible. I know you guys have spent alot on transportation and photographs and what nots... so i hope you all only have to pay a token fee for this gathering.

THis gathering is not for me... its for you. SO in the meantime, keep your eyes peeled for more updates and take care in the meanwhile ya?

Review,Revise, Relook

Just spent some time looking through some of my past performances(all thanks to youtube and the great people who make the effort to upload videos of our performances! thank you so much!) I'll be honest and say that i don't think i've been putting up good performances in these recent weeks.

I know you all are too nice to tell me that but perhaps its a good thing that i realise it myself... I know i have to go pick up the art/skill from someone. I never really went through any formal singing classes and i think its important that i do go through some form of classical training... but when??? Argh. Same questions i'm asking myself.

And remember the post i almost never posted? The one about sacrifices...? Haha, part of it came from me wanting to excel in all the areas i'm involved in. Internship, Singing, Church, Social Circle.... its too many things i want to excel in. And i start losing my focus...

I can't give my 100% to my work because i'm always worrying about my next performance. And i can't give 100% to my performances because i'm always worrying about the deadlines that are due at work... which leaves me neither here nor there.

Sometimes i admire Daren. Its his full time job now... he can give it his all. Dabble in song writing... pick up some musical instruments and just play around. Sing all day long... dance all day long... improve constantly.

On the other hand, i seem to be stuck at one point. Taking a few steps forward, and then retreating backwards again. To and fro until even I'm tired. =) And so when i look back at my performances... i feel like going to the kitchen, grabbing a pot or pan and whacking myself on the head with it saying...

"AIYO! WHY Never TReasure your chance to perform! Still perform until like that! *GONG* Please la! Put in more effort la! Be more focused! You want to become singer OR NOT?!? *GONG*"

Self reflection is good and i think i know what to work towards. Yay. At the very least, if i can give my 100% when i'm doing ONE thing, then i'll be contended and happy. Stay focused diya.

On a lighter note!(or not.) Motorcross trial today was really bad! The entire race route has changed, its not only longer, but there are alot more obstacles and the ground is so soft the wheels sink in so quickly its hard to manouvre. I flew off the bike today when i attempted to CHIONG one of the ramps. Ouch. i have slightly bruised swollen(and very tender) calves now... think i'll have a bit of phobia tomorrow.

I forsee that our race tomorrow. Will be a VERY SLOW race. HAhahaa.... SAFETY FIRST. No joke man. Based on today's experience(i fell not once but twice!) ... keep us in your prayers!

P.s Thanks Ah yee for the drawing... its really really nice. I LIKE it very much.

And here's my favourite picture of the week!
GO GO POWER RANGERS!!!!

I'm ok!

Aiyo. So sorry to worry you all. Actually i typed out that post but never intended to publish it... So i was quite shocked when i received emails and messages From my friends asking me if i was ok. So sorry to worry you all... And e pic regarding my stitches... I was blogging halfway. Then i fell asleep... Ha ha. Was too tired yesterday. Which explains why the post ended at 'felt sick e whole week'. Actually there's a lot more to why i felt so sick... :) when i was at e dentist, i discovered that i am now half a hamster! I have two holes in my mouth and food gets stuck in there! Ack! I have to use some kind of apparatus to get it out before sleeping each night. Bleah. :-P but i'm feeling good except that sometimes it really hurts. Alrite! That's all for today... And above's a pic of a shoe i really like and carrie giving me e 'hai... Another shoe? Tsk Tsk. ' expression. Ha... Take care y'all!

Hail O' stiches!

There you go. My stiches. :) not very gory at all... But my experience at dental was once again, unforgettable. Felt sick for e whole week

Have i lost it all???

Suddenly, i feel detached from it all. From the life i used to lead before joining superstar.

Will anyone ever be able to understand the pain i go through sometimes. Looking back, asking God if everything i've done is right and if he'll still stand by me even if nobody else does and people around me fall away...

I've sacrificed so much. Its crazy. This is the first time i'm saying this... i think i've given up so much,for the competition, For certain people.

I feel i'm losing it... i'm fed-up with the way things are. I can no longer convince myself to continue this way.

I'm neither here nor there. I'm making new friends, building new relationships... but i look back and somehow i know it can never be the same again?

And yet, some people never fade away.

Thank you Helena, thank you Frances, Thank you Harnee(it really is a joy seeing your letters... love you so much!), thank you my cow, thank you my Farm lady Et...

Thank you Huimin, thank you waiyin...

I just had to get it off my chest. Don't think i've ever experienced this... but i feel betrayed. I feel a certain anger rising from within. And i know this is not from God.

How long can i hang on. How much longer will God hang on to me?

Info underload

Ack! so sorry peeps... made some of you rush here and there today because the information about my performances today weren't clear enough. Damn paiseh... but thanks for being there yeah? And to wahahaha...50 dollars?!? Sh**! but i'm glad you enjoyed the performance... I enjoyed myself at jurong point better though.

The crowd at Taka square were kinda "cold". And it was really weird singing to a bunch of people sitting on the iGallop. Really weird. I'm singing a nice slow melodius song... and they're jerking up down left right centre. If i could, i would have taken a picture from the stage and blogged about it... would have been a really funny sight. Unfortunately, if i had done that, it would have been extremely rude.

BUT. the iGallop actually looks rather fun. Haha.

Going in to remove the stitches in my mouth tomorrow. Sigh. I'll take more pictures to scare all you peeps out there... haha. Niteys!

Presenting ... My brother!

Ha ha... At mother's day dinner now. We were playing with e functions on my phone and this was the result! Yay my uberlicious Ubersexual not-quite-hunky but witty and intelligent only elder brother! Phinehas tan qianrong!

Jaw exercises

Following e speedy recovery of my wisdom toothless mouth. I am now in media corp on a beautiful saturday morning recording e sub theme song for an upcoming drama! My producer lost his pda on his way here in a cab and seems rather traumatised. Can e person Who picked it up please return it... Be nice. When i was young i was made to memorise a 造句 that said singaporeans are 路不拾遗. If only this was true...anyway the song i'm recording is for a drama called 特别的爱给特别的你. Its hard... But still trying my best. Alright... Last chorus! Wish me luck! :)

Loved!

Thank you all for your well wishes! Getting better... Doesn't hurt as much and i'm back to being talkative again. Except i can't talk too vigorously lest e stitches split open. Ha ha... Here's a pic of me and daren backstage!

Numbness wearing off

At this moment, e pain is quite unbearable. I'm tearing but its getting better i hope... Hungry. So many deadlines today...no choice. Have to be at work... Ouch.

A visit to the dentist

Boo... Had to go to e dentist today for a minor operation to remove two of my wisdom tooth because it was causing me pain. I was so freaked out... And this was what greeted me e moment i entered. Ah! A huge needle that could put a rhino to sleep! And ya that's my feet. I'm already lying on e dentist chair... Didn't take anymore pictures. Had to endure drilling, cracking, tugging... Boo hoo. Now my entire lower face is numb. I won't be able to have solid food for e next few days... Nasty. :( can't sing either... Bleah... No vigorous exercise. I wonder why god gave us the appendix and e wisdom tooth. Hmmm. :-S

The Confessions of a clumsy pok

Bet many of you must wondering if I got any rest on Labour day… Here’s the verdict! I got TOO MUCH REST! But still not enough. Am I confusing you yet?

Haha, I had a good 5 hour afternoon nap(which I haven’t had to chance to enjoy in a long while) but I had initially only planned on having a 2 hour nap so I could get up to blog… Alas! It was not to be. I slept like a pig! Zzzzzz…

Woke up just in time for dinner at a really nice and cheap Western stall in Serangoon Gardens… Really yummy and cheap! Its so nice my entire family has been visiting it so often I’m starting to get a bit sick of beef… so when I head down that night, I ordered fish and chips instead which to my surprise, was absolutely yummy as well!

Guess what? Its Thursday! Which means there’s music in the air today… which means…. THE TRAILER WHICH HAS ME FALLING DOWN ON THE SHOW WILL BE SHOWING TONIGHT!!!!!

AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, I had wanted to come clean with this a long time back when I first fell down during the recording. But being caught up with work and what nots… and the fact that its such an embarrassing incident. I couldn’t really bring myself to blog about it.

But now, I don’t think I have a choice. I’d rather be honest about it now then have my tagboard flooded with messages telling me how clumsy I looked on tv. Boo.

I fell. And I fell for a really long time. It was so embarrassing… *face red* I was so excited that I knew the answer so I rushed out to burst the balloons even before the hosts shouted “go!”. And because I’m not too tall, and the balloons are placed on a not very tall but not very short box, I had to jump to sit on the balloons… so I lost my balance and as the story goes. I ended up bursting both balloons and hitting my hit on the box before hitting the same hip on the floor again.

And according to the other superstars… I fell so slowly, that for a moment they all thought it was a prank, or that I was play acting. Unfortunately, I wasn’t. It was entirely the result of my excitable character and clumsy limbs.

For the longest time in the competition, I prayed and prayed and hoped and hoped that I would never fall on stage in front of a national audience. I was so thankful I came out of the whole competition unscathed… NOW THIS!!!

Shitty. that's not all. after getting up, i answered the question wrongly. Heh heh heh. -_-"

AHaha… oh well. The game was fun though. =) And so this ends my confession. I felt I had to let all of you know so that you all can have some form of mental preparation before watching me fall frame by frame on tv.

Ahhhhhh!!! SO PAISEH!!!!!

and because i'm already such a dodo bird... let me attempt to salvage the superstar image i might have in some of your hearts by sharing two pretty cool pics someone took at the motorcross event. I hope this helps. *wince*

*if it helps, i'm the one on the bike. heh.

yay!!! I came out unhurt!!!

(not so lucky in "music in the air" though...drats)

OK! Take care you all! ANd please please study hard!!!! Just do the best you can! Kelly and gang!!! JIa you ok! I believe in you peeps so so much! and for those getting back y our results... all the best! Word of advice: in the event that you feel disappointed, no worries ok? We go through this all the time, its how we pick ourselves up that matters. Jia you!