Why Don't we Have this in Singapore?!?

I'm honestly a klutz at all these shutter speed, f-stop what nots, but honestly,
these cameras are so so good looking I wish I was a camera and my
other half was a camera too and we'd produce pictures together.

I can't believe this camera was bought by some avid camera fan who lives in the USA who bought it dirt cheap at some garage sale. Why don't we have this sort of thing here???

Arghhh, such a good looking camera indeed.

At least we have Bak Kut Teh.

Always look on the bright side of life.

If I had a good looking Yashica to take photos of the good tasting Bak Kut Teh,
I might be able to rest in peace.

Alas, one cannot have the best of two worlds.

ARGHHHH!!!!!!

Over the Moon


My mind's all muddled,
my vision all blur-ried,
my heart a-fluttering,
my thoughts whirring away,
I can't even hear myself think clearly anymore.

I need a ventilator to cool down my brain ram, or maybe a thumbdrive I can save these ridiculous ideas and thoughts away into.

There's so much to do, so little time.

I know I don't say much. My brain doesn't work so well with too much at one go, but I'm thinking, I really am.

One People. One Nation. One Singapore.

Its really hard to find that single vision, and I think its really amazing when a team of people come together and they come together and put aside their differences or their personalities to work towards one single vision.

And yet, its so tough. Things are always so subjective.

And yes, its so tough. Everyone has a different set of priorities or are simply being stretched beyond their limits.

Its ok to multi-task, but there's no point if it just means every other task on hand is just going to end up being half-baked or half-finished.

And in this world that spins, things are short-lived.

So short-lived that we jump at every opportunity that comes along and throw all our eggs into one basket.

How do we find that balance, how do we prioritise?

How do we know which season we're in now, and whether this is the season for blooming?


" OH well, take little ride, hang on tight.
We're heading for the moon, if that's alright. "

- the Ignatiuscarrydeedee team.

Won't you be a part of this devious plan, and won't you put your heart and soul with the rest of the hearts and the souls? We'll make it work, or at least, we'll make it good.

We'll make it a trip worth remembering, a trip worth taking.

We're heading for the moon, won't you join us?

Speaking of which, here's something I saw from the talented 啊呆's blog:

Just Brilliant... LAH.

夜深人静






说谎

词：施人诚

是有过几个不错对象

说起来并不寂寞孤单

可能我浪荡让人家不安

才会结果都阵亡

我没有什么阴影魔障

你千万不要放在心上

我又不脆弱何况那算什么伤

反正爱情不就都这样

我没有说谎我何必说谎

你懂我的我对你从来就不会假装

我哪有说谎请别以为你有多难忘

笑是真的不是我逞强

我好久没来这间餐厅

没想到已经换了装潢

角落那窗口闻得到玫瑰花香

被你一说是有些印象

我没有说谎我何必说谎

你知道的我缺点之一就是很健忘

我哪有说谎是很感谢今晚的相伴

但我竟然有些不习惯

我没有说谎我何必说谎

爱一个人没爱到难道就会怎么样

别说我说谎人生已经如此的艰难

有些事情就不要拆穿

我没有说谎是爱情说谎

它带你来骗我说渴望的有可能有希望

我没有说谎祝你做个幸福的新娘

我的心事请你全遗忘

真的很不容易

做事难，做人更难，做好人更更难。

选歌难，写歌更难，选好歌更更难。

一首难，两首更难，十首更更难。

一个人难，两个人更难，一个组合更更难。

但是，
两个人一起做事，
一起选歌，
一起写歌，
一起难上加难。。。。

真的很好玩。

又期待，又害怕受伤害。 哈哈！

oh here's a link to a podcast Carrie and I participated in for freshmusic.... have a listen!

(500)days of summer



Watch it if you just broke up. It helps you get over him/her a little faster, accompanying you and accelerating you through the days.

I watched it, and it brought me back a little to the past and also a little into the future, getting over a little bit more and realising how its all just like the seasons that come and go.

"I know you think she's the one.
But I don't.... You look into the past and you only see the good stuff.
The next time you look back, take another look."
- Tom's sister in (500)days of summer

Good movie. Good plot, well thought out characters, plus a all grown up, new, up and coming actor who is one of the rare few child actors who grew up good looking. =P


You might remember him from "3rd rock from the sun"

.... Joseph Gordon-Levitt

I'm not usually the gushing sort of girl, and I'm kinda amazed I'm actually posting pictures of him but I think he's one actor I'm definitely going to be looking out for. He has a quality that really attracts me unlike the usual hollywood in-you-face-good-looking hunks.

Nice.

Well, the video below has nothing to do with the film but its N-I-C-E! And Hey! The male and female leads can dance!~ And the song in the video is by an indie group called 'she and him' which the female lead Zooey is in. Which means... she sang the song.

Damn. These hollywood actors and actresses really are talented...

21....24 where did 22 and 23 go???


I expected it to be a quiet and uneventful but meaningful commemoration of my 23 years on earth.

Having definitely matured over the past 2 years, I didn't have the usual secret wish of having friends jumping out at me from nowhere.

I hinted constantly to my close friends that all I really wanted this year was for a simple celebration with my close friends and family.

But I definitely got more than that....

At year 24 the 1st day, I woke up late to a drizzly afternoon, had a yummy lunch at aston's with Carrie and then proceeded to plan the day heading to a ulu Changi area to capture planes flying overhead with my new Diana mini.

Ended up at the Lam'bs place and spent the entire afternoon 纳凉-ing and roughing it out with the little ones.

I loved every moment of today. I loved it. Although i was sticky and sweaty and ugly with shapeless hair and having the shapeless hair plant patterns all over my sticky face, I was secretly counting my blessings and absorbing the pure joy the little kids were emitting constantly...

And then it was followed by dinner with my parents, brother and Suz and the fats and the Bees at Waraku... A simple dinner where everyone screams their orders over the huge japanese menus while trying to get a conversation going and trying to get Fat Gav to stop eating so fast(and drinking up Yan's Sprite.) and Bjorn to sit down and stop asking to be brought to Suntec this instant.

Watching my mum work up such a good appetite at this year's birthday might be the biggest present for me. My mum never used to have such a good appetite before that fateful operation!

The dinner went by in no hurry and we even had time to relax on the tatami mats in the private room before finally deciding to head home to cut the precious cake I received from a very respectable, admired and loved someone.

Back home, I was asked to head to the room to bring the video camera down while Carrie would go get the cake out(since it wouldn't be right for the birthday girl to bring out her own cake right?)

In front of my room door I wondered for a split second why the door was closed, when I opened the door, I wondered for another split second why I left the air-con on, and another quarter of the second my eye spied balloons covering my bedroom floor, and at the very next split second the air was filled with screams of "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!" while the lights in the my room were flicked on by scholar Ethan who was hiding on the top deck of my double decker bed!

I never expected a 24 year old to have such a birthday surprise. I felt like I was 18.

It was all. So. Heart. Warming.

Warmed the cockles of my heart so that you can't possible have hepatitis B from eating Dee's heart cockles; cuz they're so warmed up that all the evil viruses like discontentment, unhappiness, loneliness are killed in the process.

I love you guys. you you and you!

Never fail to show me the unconditional, eternal, CREATIVE love you guys have!!!!

Yizhen! *hip hop* and Ro-nana... Honestly, you've left a mark on my birthdays.... I'm not taking the "happy birthday" words off my curtains. I want them to remind me of my 24th, just like how the silver stars still remind me of the 21st. I don't ever wanna forget!

But as I was sitting on the sofa with Et and Cici, we talked about the 21st and the recent 24th and we asked ourselves out loud "where did 22 and 23 go?????"

Time goes by so fast.

So so fast!

And well, of course... the lovely wine session with 3 baskets of "Singapore's best chicken wings" and the kinky + 2(mono and carrie) + 1(waiyin) - 1(Linhui).

And the lovely hotel room at New boutique Hotel Klapsons with Aunty Lucy and friends....

Did i miss out anything?

What an eventful start to my 24th year on the Universe!

A big shout out to my bestie/partner-in-crime/bunker/punchbag Carrie Yeo Chia Ying for being the anchor girl in my celebrations(constantly SMS-ing for 3 days, and fending off my stupid "I know you're planning my birthday surprise" nonsense and "oh, so esther and helena are coming?" questions so calmly haha! .) and for taking the great photos!

I'll leave it to the pictures now... they put a smile to my face, I hope they'll put a smile on yours too!

(a lolly and a doughnut a day keeps the hunger away.)

(the new lomo owners)

(contributers to my new limited edition comme de garcons tee!)

(x 班生 *wink*)
(Oh...yeah! p.s Mr Lu's newest album coming out soon! Oh yeah! )

(happy... )

(anchor girl lighting the candles...)

(these powerpuff girls are now sitting on my shelf protecting me from bad dreams...)

(CK wishes me happy birthday 'Aunty Lucy' style, causing my sides to rip in laughter.....!)

(@#$!@# Weixiang says "this cake smells nice" and then as i naively move in to take a sniff whams it in my face!)

(Ms Wong sent me a cake.....I was so touched I wanted to cry.)

(I'm 24? No. I'm hardly 4.)

(Ian!)

(christian!)

(Iphone generation)

(the split second after the 2 split seconds and 1 quarter second where I'm trying to register my shock.)

(my twin, 12 years older.)

Thank you for being my friends.
Thank you for the love and the joy!
I am so HAPPY!

Home Sweet Home


I'm back from HK...

the 8 days didn't go by as quickly as I expected it to as of all holidays.

But not because it wasn't fulfilling or fun.
I think it was the generally fast paced lives that people in HK live that made me feel in contrast,
I wanted everything around me to go real slow.

Carrie did a really good job, having fun, making friends and singing her heart out. We were the loudest most enthu supporters, well trained by Junli in Singapore. The HK culture is really different although TVB feels like just the HK version of Mediacorp. The people there don't give so much a hoot about cheering or clapping or the general atmosphere, but are really quick to stop you from taking photos of the stage or contestants.

I wonder why.

Anyway, I really really enjoyed Carrie's 可以不爱了， will try to find a youtube video of it tomorrow to share.
We watched her perform with our hands clenched in nervousness and in bitter cold(the studio was freaking cold! and TVB made the supporters wait for the shuttle bus for 45 minutes in the rain!!!!!! I was drenched. )

I was nervous because the studio air was cold and dry and carrie was wearing ..... minimal. HAHA.

But listening and watching her sing, I could see she was fully into the song, and I felt my muscles slowly unclenching themselves and just being a part of her emotions.... I really really really thought she stood a chance to win against the Malaysian overall winner.

Argh. But she really did all of us proud.

The bunch of us sitting in front of the stage, freezing our asses off and screaming our throats sore, loved every moment being her supporter. But we think maybe the judges didn't let us in cause we cheered too loudly. What do you expect from one Doraemon, 3 nanyang girls and one hwachong girl.

Anyway, I don't like Cheung Chi Lam that much anymore.

I shall tell you why the next time I blog. right now, I need to bathe and sleep, i'm heaty and I think I have breath that smells like a mountain troll.


Roar.

对不起

简单的三个字，但不容易说出口。

朋友有困难，我很想向前安慰，让她知道，我在一旁分担。

Its such a helpless situation, but I feel helpless that I can't do anything.

I feel miserable that I can't even tell her in the face that I'm still here.

And that you are still in my prayers.

Sorry.

If you ever see this, I just want to say sorry that I'm not around to share your burdens,
that I'm not around to help you get through life's ups and downs. I know there's little I can do, but if only I could even do a little bit.

Even if it was just to sit by you quietly, for hours.

Just so you wouldn't be alone.

你還有個我 (DSA 公益主題歌）
詞 ：小寒
曲／編：黃韻仁
製作 ：黃韻仁／林倛玉　　　
　　
要是記憶曾有什麼傷痛
是人心中 不夠體諒與溝通
懷中單純的你與眾不同
我的笑容 就是你整片天空
地球快速轉動 一刻不放鬆
或許在此刻最適合你我相逢
人越奮力掌控 越隕落了夢
別難過聽我說 在這一秒鐘

你還有個我 永遠在左右
陪你用眼淚灌溉出花朵
你還有個我 聽懂你脈搏
同步感受生命起落
你值得我為了你這麼做
（感謝你的愛給我這麼多 你還有我）

是你讓我明白七色彩虹
一星期中 總有藍色的寒風
不怕世界對著我們嘲弄
緊緊相擁 翅膀就不再沉重

A big "hello!" from Hong Kong!

Am now in the city that never sleeps, although I beg to differ because it looked rather sleepy last night... am here because Carrie competing in the HK TVB8 competition on Sunday!

A slow start today because I'm home alone in the hotel, but I'm heading out soon...!

Anyway, just a quick hey ho! before I leave for the day's happenings. Stay tuned to the telly this coming Sunday on channel 53 of starhub cable at 7pm for a live broadcast of the competition Carrie will be in ok?

Shall blog more when I get back to the hotel tonight!

Really stuck.

not in a moment.

Stuck at a traffic junction where my car has no petrol, no wheels, there are traffic police all around, there's a body lying on the road and there's a bunch of kids eating ice cream right next to the kind uncle selling balloons and ice cream.

Not getting my drift? Its ok.

A random thought.

I still can't come up with a chorus to my half song.

This is frustrating.

I'm in need of a few road signs, a nice traffic policemen, and preferably an ambulance for my fluctuating blood pressure.

Would be good if someone could give me some fuel for my engine as well.

Or must i be bleeding internally and facing near death before anyone pays any attention?

Sounds too serious. Its not that serious. Just a really way-off analogy.

Point us in a direction and preferably give us a hand to hold on to.

Right now, I can only look to you. for comfort, for inspiration, for acknowledgement, for resources, for that one guiding light.

I really hope to sing you a song. But right now, its still half way. and its been that way for months. So much for hidden talent.

*pulls hair*

*stops for moment*

*ponders*

Let's sleep the uneasiness, the restlessness, the unsatisfaction, the unworthiness away.

Tomorrow will be a new tune, a new search, a new situation, a new car, a new road block, a new excitement, a new challenge awaits.