Nerve Wrecking even though its not even my wedding.

Going to Fann and Chris wedding in a bit with Carrie and Peifen.

A short walk back to memory lane tells me I was a fannatic fan club member years ago. A walk back tells me I used to buy 50 cent photo cards from the MRT comic book shop of Fann and Chris as 姑姑 and 过儿. I'd carry these pictures in a small note book, and brought it along with me the first time I stepped into mediacorp for a audition with the rest of my theatre club friends in sec 2.

Today, I'm going to their wedding as an invited guest.

I'm really happy. I hope tonight will be a night they can remember for life.

Dear Lord,

We commit this wedding, the union of these two wonderful people into your hands and ask Lord that you make this night such a memorable, love overflowing night for them. And that everyone there, will not just come home with full stomachs, but with a smile on their faces knowing that unconditional love truly exists between, friends, family and Fann and Chris.

Amen.

The Cove

Watch it before it stops showing in theatres, which is probably in a few days time.

Please watch it.

Especially if you're a fan of the flipper hit series about a dolphin or a fan of Free Willy.

I think it takes alot of courage to go against what you helped build up.

Please please please take some time out to watch "The Cove"


http://www.takepart.com/thecove/

Knowledge. Food for the soul.

Good company, is when you reach home at the end of the day, feeling tired and yet refreshed by the endless laughter and joy that was shared amidst the continuous exchange of knowledge both personal and on a deeper level.

I hate the feeling of walking away from a gathering or a conversation feeling like essentially, those 5 or 1o minutes of my life could really have not taken place in the first place and that wouldn't have mattered.

I like my friends, because almost everyday I learn new things that make me realise how big and beautiful the world is, and how there are still so many people out there with a fiery passion, holding on to that which is eternal and living out a life I admire.

I'm really glad I met you all.

And I definitely look forward to doing more stuff with you guys.

I want the 5 minute conversations in my life to matter.

I don't want it to be always about the same things,

Evolution.

We are not in the stone age.

I realised yesterday, that I really rather have a conversation with a snobbish someone who is readily willing to share and impart and exchange knowledge rather than with someone who is generally friendly and nice but only has the same things to say day in and out.

What an irony.

If the same topic persists in future conversations, at least make it witty.

Wit never fails to impress me.

Even if its about a topic I really am not interested in delving into.

"For the mind of the flesh is death; but the mind of the Spirit is life and peace: because the mind of the flesh is enmity against God; for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can it be: and they that are in the flesh cannot please God." - Rom. 8:6-8.


What you feed your mind, is what you become.

一场游戏？一场梦。


今天和 manager 一起去开会，

其实可能比较像喝茶聊天似的，虽然还算是谈正经事。

aiya.

I think this post shouldn't be in chinese, sounds too serious.

变。

ok. So, we were having a meeting with Lijuan and the three of us were passionately sharing our thoughts and philosophical idealistic views on our ambitions, our dreams, and what spurs us on. All this while, our manager was chewing gum and just listening on, not exactly seeming to share the same fiery passion that we were spurting (almost burning the place down I think.)

We talked about how 梦 and 爱 is similar in more ways than one.

I shared about how I always had the notion that 爱 is a very very big momentous, 伟大 thing, but Carrie always believed it was in the little things and that love CAN and should be felt even in miniscule situations, and recently, I've begun to understand this and slowly been able to learn to experience and practice it in my life.

Similarly, 梦 was never meant to just be about lofty aspirations, its in the little things you do. Yes, my greatest dream might be to be a full-fledged singer, but I have many other little things, which I dream of but haven't achieved. I want to see my Dad and Mum happy and carefree, I know I'm still bulk of the reason they frown and sigh these days, but yes, that's my little dream. Everytime my weird antics make them chuckle, I feel like that little dream of mine took flight to a higher altitude.

What's that little dream of yours?

Anyway, the brilliant part and amidst all our cheem and philosophical quotes and conversations of the day was something that manager 侠女Amy said without giving a second thought. And, honestly, her brutal quote that came with a valiant carefree attitude really knocked the air out of me in laughter.

It's not just funny. It's true. And while everyone is busy screaming

"where is my passion! What is my dream! AHhhhrrrggghhhh!!!! "

and losing sleep and hair over this....



I say. Stop. Listen. and Learn... from 侠女Amy.




me to 侠女Amy : 那，你的梦想是什么？


*without batting an eyelid*


侠女Amy: 我..没有梦的。*continues to chew gum*




-_-" that's your first reaction right?

But these words came out of her so forthrightly, and she felt there was nothing wrong with that, and above all, I could feel that there was nothing about her life at that moment that she was discontented with, she was one happy as a lark, fun to hang out with, hip mother-of-one-french-baby 侠女.

And it reminded me of something 蔡导 said at the 影展 in 高雄。


人如果有梦，
却不努力追随，
不努力去实现，

天天活在不知足,
好高骛远的状态之下，
就会痛苦过一生。


倒不如没有梦想，
珍惜现在所拥有的一切，
快快乐乐，知足常乐的过一生。


想要，却因没努力而得不到。
失望，后悔，怨恨。


不想要，却又意外得到。
开心，知足，感激。


有梦想就最好努力，不然，就学学侠女Amy!

一定要对得起自己！


p.s. Not saying that 侠女 has no dreams, but maybe she doesn't realise it. Just that, i think her immediate reaction to that question, and her being able to live with her own answer, is most important and really deserves a packet of..... sweets. =P

Sharing my supper!

My house has a larger-than-average living room because my mum teaches tuition and a SMALLER-than-the-smallest-kitchen-ever-kitchen because my mum never had the patience to cook(although she's really good at it!!!).

Me? I have a larger-than-life desire to cook and make delicious stuff, and then force feed them to the people around me.

But my kitchen is so small!!!!!

When I was about 8 years old.. I once used the microwave to heat up a few char sa bao's when my mum wasn't around. Because I didn't really know how to operate the timer, the bao ended up cooking for a good 10 minutes. I only realised something was wrong when I saw black smoke coming out of the kitchen with this horrible burning smell... My bao came out black.

Since then, I was blacklisted. I wasn't allowed to touch anything in the kitchen.

But recently! I've been spending loads of time in this mini kitchen of mine and I really wanna share my proud creations!!!

Everyone's asleep now you see, but I'm burning with pride so I've just got to share this somewhere!

Was trying to make ton-katsu but I think it looked more like pork chop...
although I dipped it in tonkatsu sauce and yellow mustard! Yums!

Wee! Ton-katsu meal complete with
japanese rice and japanese malt barley tea!

吃得干干净净！

And on another lonely quiet night...
it was my first attempt at ONIGIRI!

Pretty good I must say, I even woke up two hours after going to
bed just to wake up and pack it for my dad's breakfast!

And tonight! I did Onigiri again! Prepared a whole bunch with different flavourings and smoked salmon and even bought Inari skin from cold storage.... for tomorrow! Yay!

Yay! Joy shared! Sorry can't share the food. Hoho... Off to sleep happy! Nite!

A different Chapter

In life things come and go, and we sometimes we want to turn back the clock, but other times, we just want to quickly hasten our steps to move on to the next page of our lives.

time is a funny thing. It plays tricks on us.

When we need it to go slow, it quickens its pace so much that catching up is never a possibility.

When we just want it to pass quickly, it stops and takes eternity to pass.

But its all in the moment. When you look back, you always wonder:
"How did so much of my life go by without me realising it?"

AH, the irony of life. The discontentment we secretly harbour in our hearts, the fickle-mindedness of humans, the short life and the long days.

Its been a good 3 years since taking that first step into this unknown territory, a year since I graduated. a year since I left the hill to really pursue the lofty dreams.

A good 1 and a half year of waiting, of "waiting behind nothingness".

Never being able to explain what I do with my time, always having to jokingly answer "nothing lor!" when actually, time passes by in a blink and there's never enough time to complete the things I need to complete.

Tomorrow will be a day, insignificant to many, at this point even to me. Its not the day Jesus was born, or independence day, or any other widely celebrated ocassion, but it is an ocassion of some sort and should most probably mark a new chapter in life, if not.. a sub-chapter.

I pray dear Lord, that your wisdom is with us, your blessings overflow, and your grace, abundant. Taking off the lampshades and shining the light through a small room even, is only sufficient by your grace.

In my bones, I know.

Tomorrow won't just be a today or a tomorrow, it'll be a day of reflections and gratitude and looking ahead.

Till tomorrow my friends!

Little Boy complex

I always felt there was a little boy stuck in me.

Sometimes I think there's really special, but sometimes I think this little boy needs a good lecture down.

Why not little girl? Well, that's because the stereotype in this society is that little girls play with their barbie and probably the most active thing they ever do... is chase butterflies.

That little kid in me is definitely stereotypically boy.

I don't even know why I am the way I am.

Works to my benefit sometimes, like soccer with the neighbourhood boys since I was 7 years old.
I was the best/worst defender ever, I kept my eyes on the ball and I was as persistent as the seasonal cough you get that never goes away.


The little boy in me is the one who enjoys the little adventures, climbing trees, hanging on the handlebars in my dad's car and allowing myself to swing around as the car swerved through the urban jungle...


The little boy is the one who fought other little boys in primary school. beating them in arm wrestles and monkey bars. (yes. don't play play. I am THAT 'sum seng'.)



The little boy is the one who stays positive and butts his head into things whole-heartedly, passionately, inconsiderate to the consequences that have to be borne.



The little boy is the one who hates the skirts because they stop me from taking big steps, crossing my legs when I'm having my lunch, doing spontaneous activities which most girls will say "I can't, not today. I'm in a skirt."




The little boy in me, is generally always the one who gets in trouble.




The little boy in me, is the one my mum always shakes her head and sighs at...

"aiyo, my dotter, so 'sum seng', how to find boyfriend you tell me?"

And then I put my hands against my cheek and sigh to myself.

From little girl to little boy I say: WHY are you like this?


Little Boy: But I like you, I like myself! Don't worry, this will make sure its true love. If you only ever get yourself a bf in skirts, then you'll never be happy , no? Well, the day a guy falls in love with you... and accepts me... we'll know its true love!

Little girl: But when?

Little boy: That... I don't know. But let's not waste anymore time thinking about this! Let's go on another adventure!

Little girl: Argh...... we're just going to get in more trouble....

Little Boy: Oh well, I'll get in trouble, and then you'll say sorry.

Little girl and boy: We're the perfect match! We're the best playmates in the world! We're YOU and we're ME! WHOOOPEEEE!!!

Will you check out that POSE??

AHHH!!! BARBIEEEE!!!
NOOoooOOoooOo~!~!!!

obviously Sheepish with the weird get-up and wondering exactly
what is so funny that the adults are laughing about...

Do you have the little boy complex too? I'm sure you do.

We all do... (maybe little girl for the boys? hee hee hee hee.)

On a sidenote: looking at all these pictures really makes me miss my Po Po all over again. Those who still have their Popo's by their side... go give her a hug now and tell her how much you love her.

Online Shopping - its all the RAGE!

A few of my friends have started online shops!
(I almost started an online T-shirt business myself...I still hope to!)

Please please please please support them! Bookmark their shops NOW!

Why? Because they're my friends!!!!!!!!!!

Rose Patch
by my fellow churchie.

"We started off as a bunch of girls who LOVE to online shop during stats lessons. Then in the midst of all the craziness , we decided, why not do it ourselves! And here we are!!!

This shop was named Rosepatch, promising to bring together the
different aspects and views of feminine fashion.
Our collections promise to evoke Independance, Feminity,Confidence and Strength in every girl and woman.
Of course, not forgetting the thrill of cheap and great buys us girls treasure as an experience in shopping. We hope you find the same joy and pleasure, shopping with us at Rosepatch.:) "

elliefannie
by my fellow Mass Commie

" Blog. Travel. Photography. Fashion.

That pretty much sums up what Su & Han (that’s us in elliefannie) love

Two girls, a lot of laughter, more pretty clothes and pictures.

We hope you enjoy browsing and buying these clothes as much as we enjoyed the process of planning, buying and shooting them. "

Ourlabel-inn
by one of the badminton girls

The newest of the three, the model you see in the picture above is my friend! Clair!

Clair's an air stewardess, so when she's free she roams the foreign lands and the less trodden paths in search of fashion pieces to bring back to sunny singapore!

I especially like the checked shirt you see in the picture up there and I'm going to get it regardless of whether it fits me or not! Hah!

They don't have an "about us" on their webpage yet, so here's just my two cents worth!

p.s. they also have a sister webpage which sells a whole lot of accessories. Also worth a visit!

I've been shopping online quite a bit, I haven't bought anything other than camera bags and lomos, but that's only because those Korean fashion websites or US sneaker websites don't ship to Singapore or ship to Singapore at exorbitant prices which would burn a hole in not just my pocket but through my ASS.

So I think its no wonder that these local online shops are experiencing such a boom! So many choices, and at such affordable prices. Seriously, where can you find a checked shirt like the one I like in Clair's shop at 24 BUCKAROOS!?? (oops, I just realised its sold out. Wassit me??)

Plus, I'm 99% sure I'm not going to be caught on the street wearing the same thing as someone else.

The only bad thing, is that this is becoming a bit of an addiction.

like addiction to youtube isn't bad enough (spending hours going through yoga's many performances )...
like addiction to FB isn't bad enough(checking for updates every one min) ...
like addiction to chain emails(checking for updates every one hour)...
like face-to-face communication with family and friends isn't lacking enough...

Add online shopping to the list and we're halfway to living a virtual life on the net 24/7.

So have fun and shop, but don't neglect the other aspects of your life ok?

Like now, I think I should get my fingers off this darn keyboard and place them elsewhere like maybe on my lonely guitar.

BYE.

No internet/computer for me for at least the next....

10minutes. HAH!