Have i lost it all???
Suddenly, i feel detached from it all. From the life i used to lead before joining superstar.
Will anyone ever be able to understand the pain i go through sometimes. Looking back, asking God if everything i've done is right and if he'll still stand by me even if nobody else does and people around me fall away...
I've sacrificed so much. Its crazy. This is the first time i'm saying this... i think i've given up so much,for the competition, For certain people.
I feel i'm losing it... i'm fed-up with the way things are. I can no longer convince myself to continue this way.
I'm neither here nor there. I'm making new friends, building new relationships... but i look back and somehow i know it can never be the same again?
And yet, some people never fade away.
Thank you Helena, thank you Frances, Thank you Harnee(it really is a joy seeing your letters... love you so much!), thank you my cow, thank you my Farm lady Et...
Thank you Huimin, thank you waiyin...
I just had to get it off my chest. Don't think i've ever experienced this... but i feel betrayed. I feel a certain anger rising from within. And i know this is not from God.
How long can i hang on. How much longer will God hang on to me?
5 comments:
hey hey...haven't met u or talked to u in such a long time. but rest assure i've been trying to catch up by reading ur blog. hardly have any time now dat i started working already.
anyway, i think this is just a trying period for u. everyone goes thru it one time or other. i mean, i'm turning 25 and i got pretty freaked out at where i am heading. quarter-life crisis u noe? haha...
i think...pray, ask for guidance. sometimes, it takes periods like these to grow into the next stage of your life. it sucks now, but once u are done with it, it'll be a great experience, in retrospect, no matter what.
cheerios! catch up when u're free-er and when the SQ-"girlfriends" (mine included) are free to meet up again. hahaha...-hugz-
Hi, I'm Y.N. Upon reading yr blog, I've a phrase to comment to u. "The Beauty of life isn't about how happy you are, but how happy others are because of u" Till this day, ur achievement hav cause a deep memories in all yr supporters n fans. u hav cause many happiness in them. I'm proud of u. U hav achieve a level which many ppl can't do. u made them proud too. if u have gone through this tough superstar journey, what more you can't achieve? Take Care.
after reading all those, i just wanna give u a hug
*hugs*
yea... u dunno me. i came through from cruz teng's blog~
Hey a passerby here:)
Just wanna encourage you to press on. Continue t pray for guidance like wat your friend suggested. Think with the time you have now and change of lifestyle it will be a new challenge to you. BUt hang on~God will always be there for you and he probably has his purpose in all these:)
Jiayou!
hello! :D GOd will definitely hang on to you.. The answer is forever coz He loves you so much! Continue! Draw strength from Him and not your own! The joy of the Lord is your strength! :)
I like your voice. Keep practising and learning!! :D
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