Come what may

O' level results are coming out today.! I put both the period and the exclamation mark because i didn't know exactly which one to use. If i use the period, it would be like a factual statement that should have no hint of happiness. But if i use the exclamation mark, then it means I'm excited that the results are coming out today.

Which one would you use?

AHhh!!!! After months of hard work, today marks the day where all that untangible effort gets translated into alphabets on a piece of paper. I was never a very good student, as i'm sure many of you can tell. So all my my hard work was cramped into one desperate month before the prelim examinations.

Erm, back then in my time, the prelim examinations were very important because it would determine which JC you would spend your first three months in. I remember being the the auditorium of Nanyang and getting back my last paper... I think it was A' Maths. And i got a 74.5... that's an A1 rounded up! Haha... and then we had to finalise all our results scores in order to submit the final L1R5 score.

I remember calling my mother(damn excited, because I'm really a very bad student la. ANd i hardly get the chance to tell my mother that i have good results. And my mother is totally the kind of mum who digs good results.) and feeling all excited about telling her my results. In fact, i wanted to trick my mum into believing that i got a lower grade and then laugh in her face and say "bluff you one lar!"

But when my mum pick up the call, there was something in her voice that made me just plainly and simply tell her the truth. So i told her, "Mummy.. I got 8 points."

And then, over the phone. I heard my mother cry.

My mum reprimands, nags and even punishes me with the cane when I'm mischievious. My mum doesn't cry!

But with a small breaking voice she said "Daddy just lost his job...". And then in my heard i thanked God for having given me this invisible force and determination to study hard, because deep down i knew, that if that day i had gotten the results that i had been getting over the year(which is pretty bad...) I might not have been able to lift the burden off my mum's shoulder just by a little bit.

But it was then i realised how lucky i was as a student, as a daughter. I only had to worry about my results, but back at home, my mum had an entire list of things to worry about.

I don't know how you would feel after reading this post,it doesn't have "a moral truth" that I'm trying to preach to you. I'm just recounting an experience which means alot to me and i just wanted to share it with you all.

Good luck for your O's today peeps. I wish you all the best.