Saturday, July 26, 2008

Emotional Roller Coaster

There were the highs and the extreme lows. Its been a couple of pretty moody days for me.

I think I've learnt alot about myself over the past few days, but i don't know if its enough to pull me through all that has happened and whatever is to come.

I realised how much i like myself for who i am.

I realised I couldn't betray myself to be someone else in order to pursue a dream.

I realised how great a feeling it is to have people believe in you the way you believe in yourself.

I realised I don't have that person backing me, and I need to make some important decisions regarding that that could put alot of things on hold.

Someone I really admire said to me the other day “我们一起努力哦!”

我很喜欢这种感觉。
追求自己的梦想不再是一个人的事,
也应该从来都不是一个人走的路。
但有时侯,音乐的这条路还是可以很孤独的。

我不要再孤独。
就让我们一起努力哦 !
创造出一片传说。。。

不同国家也好,
不同的领域也好,
不一样的步伐也好,
不去计较输赢,
不去计较快或慢,
我还是喜欢这种一起努力向前的概念。
很温馨,很舒服。

我明天就要穿上毕业袍踏上我人身的新旅程。 虽然我感到很彷徨,很害怕,有点不知所错,力不从心,但这一步始终要踏出去。也就勇敢的跳出去吧!别想太多 !

朋友们。。。冲啊!!!!

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

Heyy diya..
u graduating 2mr? congrats!~
ur new starting work life starting..
do jiayou yah! :)

continue to persue your music dream!
successful not one or two day thing,
as long as you work hard on it, you will see the success one day!~

work hard for it and you will get there.!

everyone has ups and downs, you must have the courage to overcome it as time goes by.

jiayou! jiayou! =D

take care okay!~

Anonymous said...

I may not know what exactly has happened or is to happen but i have confident in you. No need to be stressed by the fashion, hold on to your integrity and just do your thing.
Pray and hope that your dreams (which is also ours now) will come true at the right time, in the right way.

Don't worry, we'll still love you by then. I'll still.

Anonymous said...

Hey congrats on your convocation!!whatever that has happened, hope you'll overcome it soon. jiayou!~

diya said...

to x(t):

Same goes to you, work hard and success will come and it doesn't come overnight. =) So persevere and stay focused on your path....

to Jiaqi:

Not too sure if you'll still love me if i moved on towards something else that isn't me. I think I've been tryig to change my mindset and trying to imagine myself to be something my mum and my manager would love to see me become, but I realised I can't. My mum will say things like "guys don't like girls like you." but the point is, even if i change and people do like me, then they wouldn't be liking the real me and that wouldn't make any sense would it?

So i guess, my mind is extremely against this change, but my mouth says "ok" and now there's a major war going on and I'm feeling pretty washed-up.

Heh.

And I'm saving up money for that guess watch. I haven't forgotten. I still feel very bad that I no longer have it. And will definitely get it soon. Then we'll need some sort of a ceremony where you present it to me, again.

to adeline:

Hey thanks alot, i might not know you, but the encouragement you give does get me further in my life. So thank you for playing a part in my life. I'll remember every little pat on my back and appreciate it. =)

Anonymous said...

Hmmmmm, after reading yr comments...If I were to put myself in your shoes, I can imagine that U are doing to please the surrounding ppl and U are not happy at all...Well, I am thinking I live for myself and not for others...LIVE FOR MYSELF!!!!!BE THE REAL GENUINE DIYA!!! I am sure that there are ppl that liked u....I liked your character and attitude, U ARE BEING REAL!!...REMEMBER BE YRSELF!!! Gd Luck and take care....Seen u b4 in jay chou and mayday concert..

Anonymous said...

I say one of the most difficult thing in life is being yourself. Despite anything. But isn't that one of the things that we should put in the greatest effort too???

Some changes may be necessary but i'm sure inner personality cannot be deliberately changed as you like it. As much as i'm going against that changing idea, i really hope that you'll be happy. That should seriously be your concern. Have your goals acheived but at the end of it, what?

Man... JIAYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!! Remember to stay close to the Lord. He's the only assurance.

Anonymous said...

Congrats on ur convocation. Jia you! Take care too. =)

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Anonymous said...

Recite "ok" in your heart a few more times. Exercise and meditate.

~~JiNg~~ said...

hey diya,

on 8th AUG u performing at hongkah cc for the national day countdown right??

coz i saw u in the poster .. heehee!

and what happen? ( to ur post) anyway, cheer up! jiayou for ur performance...

I can't go to support u because Nlevel prelims exam... stress ah!!!!

lets all jiayou together!!! (((:

Stickin said...

别这样嘛,不怕不怕:你永远是我们的*Superstar*..! =)

Anonymous said...

heyhey :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=35rCfkA0IyU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QN5XGBns2mI&feature=related

two videos of urs uploaded in youtube...last night @ jurong west de..paiseh paiseh..the loudspeaker beside so abit noisy =)

P.S: when is your next event coming up? :)

take care yah! :)