Getting Old

I spent the entire night searching for my teeth.

I mean, Braces.

I hope my dentist doesn't read my blog... otherwise she'd reprimand me for being a bad example. So don't follow in my footsteps, take care of your braces and remember to wear them religiously to keep your teeth from moving around. Lucky me, my teeth don't move around much now. HEH.

Phew, quite relieved actually. I thought i lost them, and that freaked me out because it would cost another 600 bucks to make and that's going to burn a hole in my pocket. Hmm, no, it'll burn off my pocket.

But I found it! I persevered! I searched the same places over and over! You know how the land of lost things always eats up things and then suddenly and randomly spits them back out. Yeah!!! My teeth were in the land of lost things! But i think they were worthless there so the land spit them back out!

I think I sounded like an old lady who lost her false teeth....

at one point, I was so desperate i actually googled "where's diya's teeth?!?!"
Not helpful AT ALL but this search actually had melvin's blog on the third link. Weird.

And now that my braces are snuggled up in my mouth and i finally feel peace at last...I can really learn my songs for tomorrow and the weekend...

Quite excited about tomorrow because I chose to sing 崇庆‘s "冲动"... It is his event and I thought it would be apt to 打歌! Hahaha.... although the CD that will be on sale tomorrow is not his album but rather 周公讲鬼 . Initially I told Carrie I wanted to sing Leehom's 不要害怕 to encourage listeners to buy the CD, but after some delibration, I decided that it was a rather lame reason... so anyway, pls drop by and have the 冲动 to come support by lending us your cheers and also by buying a CD!

The event starts at 8pm, Peifen and Jiahui will be hosting the show and if you buy the CD, you even get a chance to get 周公’s signature on your CD! I think this entire idea of selling a ghost story CD is damn radical la... blows my mind.

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Well, I think most of you have unscrabbled the mystery...and as much as I want to 理智气壮的唱下去, I think Sat's performance will be my last official performance as a Mediacorp Artiste.

很舍不得但我相信这不代表剧场的落幕。

What the future holds for us no one knows. Even Tida, you can come up with all sorts of predictions and say that I will never make it. But seriously, you don't really know. Neither do I... and I guess, that's the beauty of it.

I embrace it.

理智气壮的唱下去。

骂我笨，说我蠢，我还是硬着头皮理智气壮的唱下去。

The other day, after telling him my decision, 高见老师 told me something which made me feel so much better. When I apologised for making such a decision and told him how tough it was for me to pull away from all this, giving up an album and a career to go back to being just a simple 享受音乐的我 . He told me not to worry and said :

"娱乐圈永远都存在,没有圈中人或圈外人。把自己想成是站在中间，因为这娱乐圈无所不在。"

很感动, because it made sense to me. I thought I had made a really tough decision to leave but the fact is I've always been part of this since young. I've been performing in church since i was 5? I was in the choir in primary school, theatre in secondary and JC. Hosted numerous events in school and outside and then finally found my love for singing at the beginning of JC2.

I always entertain at family dinners. Jin Kiat is always asking me for more jokes. SOmetimes I say something and i don't even know why he can't stop laughing. Sometimes i say something, or produce a reaction, and someone will tell me to seriously consider 搞笑行动 which is passe now.

Its in me, so there's no IN or OUT. There's only an existence of BEING.

I enjoy every moment of this, be it on-stage or off-stage. Be in as a mediacorp artiste or as a family member or as a children church worker prancing around on stage. I enjoy and relish EVERY SINGLE MOMENT.

The road is tough, because its not stable and that means my Mum has to worry for me. And i wish she wouldn't worry so much because it has taken a toll on her health. Makes me hate myself for enjoying all that I'm doing because what I enjoy doing tortures her.

Sorry Mummy.

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But I'm quite happy now... today I went for my first drum trial lesson!

Instructor: What makes you want to learn the drums?
Me: I've always wanted to learn but my mum disallowed it because she felt it was too Chor Lor...
Instructor: ??? OMG. You mean such a reason really exists????

Can't wait for next Monday's lesson... (bone tingling with excitement)


And to end off, I just got back from a short trip from Bintan with Carrie and on our way back. I saw the biggest, most beautiful Rainbow ever in my life.

and with these pictures, I say Goodnight...