Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Something to Share...

I made a decision, a serious decision to walk away from all that I had geared myself up for. Maybe some will laugh at me and disagree with me, but there are also many people out there i love who have given me a pat on the back and have stood by me. Most importantly, i stood by what i believed.

Stepping out of my comfort zone, crawling out of this safety net.

Perhaps I've been too comfortable.

Perhaps I'm not ready as yet.

Perhaps, I need a rest.

Perhaps, Perhaps.

Its a decision I have to learn to live with, and a path i will not look back upon.

I don't know how many of you will still be here reading my blog in the next one or two years. Reality can be rather harsh sometimes, but I've got to learn to put down my pride and just trust in him.

Anyhow, I just wanted to share this short story with you. Its rather morbid... 黑色幽默. But it makes me laugh at the reality of things... and i hope it does for you too!




I once knew a girl
who would just stand there and stare.
At anyone or anything,
she seemed not to care


She'd stare at the ground,


She'd stare at the sky.


She'd stare at you for hours,
and you'd never know why.


But after winning the local staring contest,


she finally gave her eyes
a well-deserved rest.



I liwl eb ngeviael porcmdiae.

Hah, I like to play the fool even in serious moments like this.

Unscrabble that.

First to do that gets to do a little victory dance. No victory dance for my friends who already know what is going on.

13 comments:

Hannah said...

hey diya! i've been silently reading (:

hmm glad to see you've made your decision and are sticking with it! and yes, trust in Him because our own understanding is very very shallow, haha. Proverbs 19:21 is what wakes me up sometimes!

take care <3

-Hannah

Anonymous said...

I got it! I got it! I think... hahaha~ All the best to you! Stand by what you believe in.

Anonymous said...

nod nod*
i have been reading too..

we'll respect your decision =)
decide what you think is best for urself.

Stickin said...

Diya, 蔡礼莲 didn't took the showbiz path after her hit duet《七月俏佳人》with 陈汉伟; 蔡淳佳 went back to nursing after her initial foray into the industry didn't turn out well : maybe the time isn't right for u YET, and never say NEVER indefinitely to something u love (not as if u're doing it outta fame or $). But whatever it is, it ain't the end of the world unless u stop BLOGGING..! =)

Anonymous said...

hellohello! what a cryptic post...
has it to do with singing?

anyway yeap after you've decided don't look back! give it all you've got..

and remember He's always there to redeem your mistakes so keep walking with Him yeah! :D

jiayou!

and ignore the detractors, because the ones who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter. :)

Anonymous said...

Diya..dun worry :)
i believe alot of us here will be respecting ur decision :)

for me, i will respect ur decision too :)
i tink u are being responsible to yourself as well...
cos u knew u might not be confident enough now to accept this yet. so u decided to make this decision..

but dun worry..
u are still young.. :)
there's still lots of chances out there waiting for u in future.. :)
jiayou~~ :)
takecare and stay happy~!

XINYI

diya said...

ok, let me try to reply all of you one by one... heh

hannah:

So you broke your silence! Haha.. thank you for the encouragement.. and yes we all need a wake up call from time to time. Its easy to slip away... and end up leaning on our own understanding.

anon:

yes, it has everything to do with singing and also every other 琐碎事 that comes along with it.

Xinyi:

Thanks! How was your project, sorry i couldn't help.... would have been kinda weird. I didn't quite know how to reply you when i saw your email... heh.


stickin:

wa! You sound like you work in the industry...haha ok! Don't say never! Don't think I'll stop blogging, its like my very own pensieve, i just throw all my thoughts in so i can look back and laugh at myself.



kydia:

You sure you got it? Heh, ok don't say it out. Actually, the reason why i excrypted it machiam like i am in Da Vinci is also because I don't want to be screaming it to the whole wide world, so if you know the answer and chose not to scream it out, I really really appreciate it. =) You may still do the victory dance.


ahyee:

Thank you for your support all this while, I know this decision might upset some of the fans and maybe result in me losing them. But I think having had all your past support is already very 幸福。And ah yee, if you can can send me the picture you drew last time? i would like to keep it.... =)

Anonymous said...

hihi, i finally unscrabbled your hidden 'message' haha..kinda slow..but at least i got it..haha, all the best for your decision! jiayou!

decided then dun tink abt it le, a decison's never the right one, unless you've successfully decided nt to broad over it =) that's sth i've always been telling myself..but sayin is easy..doin is..erm..haha but..you can de! haha

all the best!

Anonymous said...

continue to jiayou!!
believe one day your efforts will be seen de. woohoo!

Anonymous said...

Hey Diya! Jiayou!You will make it big one day(:

Anonymous said...

you must be a tim burton fan, diya? ... aniwaes, it's good you have gotten your mind made up and your heart must be grateful. this is not yet your destiny, so dun fret about what the future holds. a soul who is courageous stands up to its own fear, and yours have done just that. at least you know you've gotten everything all intact. and that's more important than anything else.
- stranger

~~JiNg~~ said...

diya!!!!!!!!!

After reading this post for several times, i think i got it but not sure if it is... hahaha..

whatever it is, 只要相信自己, 对得起自己, 你所做的决定-就让天来决定你的决定吧!别想太多~~ ((:

anyway, i will continue to read ur blog ... unless u stopped blogging or change link without telling ..

okie, i going to study liao.. monday is my maths olvl prelims!! zzz.

take care,
jing2

Anonymous said...

if u have really tot over it, then stick to it. You will have the support from pple around u.

juzt remember 3 wordz watever u do now: 不要怕

yearz later when u look back, another 3 wordz: 不要悔


cheers!
jacky