Pre-departure anxiety

I don't think I could be anymore flustered than this. My luggage is strewn all over the room, packed and yet my heart feels unsure. I've never packed so much into my luggage before. Mostly competition stuff, and a whole lot of other "technical equipment" which is needed to make me look fit for the stage.

this is called pre-departure anxiety symptom. I shall henceforth call it PDAS.

PDAS presents itself in decreased brain activity, lack of patience, temporary physical disability, and most seriously, mental paralysis.

I am currently on the way to its last stage, which is mental paralysis. My brain can't function to tell me what I haven't packed in and what else I haven't done to make sure I won't end up in Taiwan pulling my hair out.

Goodness. I am such a klutz. I am always in a last-minute rush.

My life is WAAAAAY too exciting for my weak weak heart and constitution.

So yes, the flight leaves in 7 hours, I have 101 things not completed and settled which I have to settle before my scheduled departure. I am in a mental and belongings-strewn-haphazard-fashion-i-can't-figure-out-where-what-i-want-is frenzy.

Breathe. Diya. Breathe.

Singing, is not something that can and should be used to compete with. The feeling is just not nice. It makes singing feel like such a burden, such a chore when it shouldn't be. I have to throw away this burden of the competition and just sing. but right now, other than packing and bringing my entire house to Taiwan with me... I really really really need to count my BLESSINGS.

Although I keep saying "I'm not joining the olympics! I'm just going there to sing a simple 2min song!" The amount of love and support I'm getting is absolutely overwhelming and although it does stress the hell out of me because I obviously don't want to disappoint, I'm embracing it and thanking God for each and everyone of them.

Allow me to count them now before I lose brain ability.

Keith Png - Hide & Seek

Great guy. Great, great guy. Great, great, great guy.
Nat rocks for introducing such a GREEEAAT guy to me... Thanks Natty!

Gabriel - Puma

"You've got to throw all your ad*d*s sh**s away now!"
Ahhh!!!! Thank you for the generosity!
I was overwhelmed and such a happy girl when I walked out...
I was humming and singing and dreaming...

Churchies

for that gathering, for your prayers,
for your unwavering love and confidence in me.
All of you young 'flood', 加油ok? I believe in you hallelujah sisters.

Family

Because you guys love me the most.
Uncle Bb, Aunty Mei, Ee, Uncle Ho, Dad, Mum, Kor, Sulinn.
I know I can be a brat sometimes.

Carrie Yeo

My partner in crime.
We'll brave the storms that eventually lead us to our dreams!
Thank you for the Aiptek video camera...HD summore!
I love it!

You'll be my camera woman right? HEHEHEHEHE....

And of course, my dear CLUELESS farm family who are all busy healing other animals in the farm and tending to the flock... I haven't sent that email out, maybe I'll update you all in FULL detail when I get back. Sel, Et, Ci, Toes.

Kinkies. I'm going to taiwan now. Japan, next.

Freshmusic Veggies, as always being my musical advisors. I heard the podcast, thanks for introducing me to your taiwanese podcast audience already! Heh. Here I go!

And you all for the encouraging tags and comments! I'm really going now.. I'm really going. Every second brings me nearer to the stage in Taiwan. Its going to be so so so eggciting.

Now, back to PDAS. Back to packing. ARGh.