I wanna be bad.
When the world smiles, i don't smile along.
I laugh along. 要合群。
but if only for one day, it all belonged to me. And I really FYHH everything.
And just did as i felt like, maybe just give it all up.
Just say "I really can't." and leave it all behind... my family, my friends... my dreams.
Would it be worthwhile?
Giving all that up, to mend the inner cracks.
I type stuff. That are full of angst, and then i erase them because its just not responsible...
And i hate that i want to be responsible. That i want to live it the right way.. instead of the way that makes me feel good.
You're there but you're not there.
I'm here, but i'm not really here.
Where are we really.
Dear Lord,
if the things are around me are to all crumble and turn to ash, at least show me your face... so i have strength to continue. If every aspect of my life continues like this, I don't think I can take it very much longer before I lose my sanity. Please. Be with me.
but i won't. and i can't.
prove to them we are not young and stupid... maybe we are. we so are. prove what?
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There was once I dreamt that I was looking into the sky, out of breath and dying. "Give me some more time" I gasped, and was apparently granted the wish. No faces seen though.
The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will
take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will
rejoice over you with singing.
-- Zephaniah 3:17 :) keep fighting!
haha. I felt that way before! You probably might have read it in one of my posts before. Oh wells, if you really want it, don't give up! Success comes with multiple failures.:)
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