Complacent Love

I used to say in zest "Live each day with no regrets!"
but as the seconds go by,
which add up to days,
which build up to months,
which morph into years,
which span from experiences,
I realise regrets are part and parcel of life.
Its how we accept them,
learn from them,
and move on.

I have very few regrets honestly.
Only a few,
the common ones like not spending enough time with the family,
not putting in more effort during my time in school,
not believing in myself more when I was younger.
And some others that have an air of finality in them.
Like a gust of wind that brought with it a summer scent,
or the sunrays of spring,
that I failed to identify,
and hence failed to embrace.
But that moment has left for good,
and it does seem as though nothing can be done to bring these moments back.

But one thing I learned,
is that complacency can lead to alot of stupid mistakes.
When the going is good,
and all things are bright and beautiful,
you start to get all smart-alecky,
and before you know it,
you've ruined everything.

Things you worked hard to build,
people you sacrificed life to understand,
dreams you bravely fought towards,
can all crumble at a moment's folly.
When your mouth speaks from complacency.
When it no longer speaks humility and truth,
but arrogance and ignorance.

These are the moments I regret the most.
Because these are life changing,
people changing moments.
And just as how David killed the giant Goliath with a small pebble,
complacency too can kill your big dreams and aspirations with a small slip of the tongue.

That's why the bible says that the tongue is a two-edged sword.
It can be a blessing,
or it can be a curse.

Learning point from major regret of my life:
as Jen would strongly advise.

Think before Speaking.

And don't get complacent when the stormy seas have been calm for too long.
Always know that the seas are not calm and cheery by your brilliance.
Everyday, there's alot to be thankful for,
alot to be appreciated,
alot to be admitted,
alot of love to be found,
and lost.

I'm not sure if anyone knows what in the world I'm talking about here.
But tomorrow's going to be a day filled with so much love,
it got me thinking.

It takes alot for people to stay together,
for people to make decisions together.
For a couple to love each other whole-heartedly,
and to go through thick and thin together.

Through the good times,
and the bad times.

We love to think about the good times.
But really,
its the bad times that true love prevails,
and true love shines forth.

Everyone has love,
but that doesn't make it cheap.
When you receive love,
remember its one of a kind,
and so precious to your heart,
its worth much more than all the gems and rubies in the world.
Its yours.
A gift,
Only you can receive.

Love with no regrets.
There may be pain,
and hurt.
But one thing I know,
is that I don't want to have another regret.

My stupid mouth.




Learning to accept all the love you all have showered upon me,
learning to give it back.
Learning to not take things for granted,
to not be complacent.
To not like this motor mouth of mine,
ever ever ever get ahead of me again.