一个人失眠

有心事睡不着的坏毛病，我不想要有。
能安心入眠好幸福，我也好想这样。
头脑停止转动，心中的呐喊慢慢变小...
就这么简单，没有什么洒脱，不是我不再在乎，不是我想放弃，
只是想要也给自己一个能够不去管他三七二十一的机会。

因为一个人失眠的夜好孤独，好脆弱。
这种情况不能太常发生，否则这样的一个状态可能会延伸到白天里去。
到时后，我会更讨厌自己。

Often times like this, only we can help ourselves, because only we know ourselves, and really no one else is to be blame, because only we can do the things that need to be done. Gdnite.





This is one lesson I can never seem to learn. I never take words cheaply, and I never dish them out easily, that's often my worst characteristic because I'm stingy with praises and promises. Just trying to love my neighbour as myself, because I myself don't have the confidence that I'll be able to deliver, and so I manage expectations. I know that at the end of the day, I'll either deliver what I promise, or surprise the receptors with more. Have always been like that. Would always come home telling my mother about all the questions in the test that I felt were tricky and that I had no confidence I had got them right. She'd either be prepared for low marks or be pleasantly surprised with my higher-than-expectation-grades. I've always been a scaredy cat I suppose. The human mind is one that is so difficult to infiltrate and yet so easy to manipulate. And expectations will be the bane of us all. Second to nothing but memories. Hur hur. I feel a sequel coming. Goodnight. oh yay. More paragraphs.