Self-Control

What does it mean to lose control of yourself?
When that happens, your body works in ways you cannot imagine,
your muscles twitch, and it feels like your whole body is on fire and
you have no motor control over them.

What makes it tick?

If I lose control of myself. Then what is in control?

Its a really weird and yet liberating feeling.
Weird because you don't really like to feel the way you're feeling,
or be in the state that you are in.

Liberating because it feels like all the pent up energies in your body is
being released all at one go.
Even my stomach muscle cramped up.
And when you do things to yourself... it doesn't hurt.

I know how scary this sounds.
But as scary as it sounds, its very real.

So i want you guys to listen up.

If one day, any of you reading this understand what i mean.
Or are going through what I went through.
Drop me an email.

I promise to be a listening ear, and do whatever I can to relieve you of some of those burdens that are weighing you down.

How, I wish right now.
That someone could understand... without me saying too much.