I have to be responsible for myself.

My own actions.
My own body.
My own life.
My own emotions.

And work around it,
learn the ropes of it.
Find the knobs,
and tweak the settings as and when I require so.

Breathe.

Like my mum,
I have the need to scold, to nag, to get what needs to be said off my chest.
When often, what you need to get off your chest,
might not really be what people want to hear.
And when people don't want to hear what you have to say,
even if the intentions are good...
you start to wonder if there's anyway you can learn to be more nonchalent,
more relaxed, without just becoming patronising.

Maybe my mum has tried that for years and failed.
That's why when I fall sick, and have to see the doctor...
I don't tell her.
Unless I really have to.

What happens when this is how you tick,
and you know it, and want to do something about it,
but the hands on the clock don't turn back and can't move in any other way except in that clockwork fashion that you were built to turn???

Accept the consequences of who you are,
or continue to try and not be.

To be or not to be, is the question.

AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! 我是气到！！！！
BUT!!!! 我不想的！！！！！